Welcome to Georgia's Journey

Georgia Lily Lucas was born at home on October 6th, 2008 4:15am, in Winnipeg, Manitoba. She was diagnosed with SMA (Spinal Muscular Atrophy) on April 1, 2009.

On April 3rd Georgia was taken home, to be near her sisters and the rest of her family and friends. Nearly three weeks later, on April 21, 2009, she died peacefully -- in the loving arms of her mother and in the same room in which she was born.

Monday, October 12, 2009

At least...

Since losing Georgia, I can't tell you how many times I have heard the expression, "Well... at least you have the other two." I have learned to simply smile whenever I hear this comment. Of course I am grateful for Calla and Maya but that doesn't mean that there isn't a huge void left in all of our lives. This weekend however,as we are supposed to be focusing on being thankful I have never appreciated my girls as much.

On Tuesday, just before I went to bed I went to feed my very old fish. He was lying at the bottom of his bowl dead. I just looked at Mike anxious to get that long day over and said. "Well, the fish is dead. I just want this day to end." I was already feeling quite bitter given that Georgie wasn't around for her birthday and the dead fish was like adding insult to injury.

We left the fish in the bowl until the next day because we wanted Calla and Maya to see it and understand what had happened. As I listened to Mike gently explaining to our girls that the fish had died I was still feeling bitter. It was a long week! Maya immediately got very excited upon hearing the news. Calla was smiling too. They both started going on about how great it was that the fish had died on Georgia's birthday because she must have wanted one for her birthday. "And, now she has one forever!", said Maya. Well, I couldn't help but smile after that.

Adn then, after several months of below normal temperatures followed by a gorgeous September the weather decided to go back to below normal temperatures. On Friday night it was snowing! The leaves have just started to change colors here and it was snowing like crazy. The next morning the ground was covered. I was horrified and my girls were thrilled! They couldn't wait to get out there. Our neighbor's little girl even woke her parents up already wearing her snow pants!

As disgusted as I was, we all spent a very fun morning outside playing in the snow. Calla wishes that it could be winter all year long! By afternoon most of the snow had melted but it remains quite cold here. Even as this week has been a long one I can actually smile and say to myself, "Well at least I have the other two!"

Thank you Calla and Maya. You fill our days with joy and sunshine even when it's snowing outside. Happy Thanksgiving!









Love to you all,

Kristen

4 comments:

  1. You've got to appreciate how two little girls can put such a positive spin on things. I would have to agree with them...I'll bet that little fishy made his way up to heaven to be with Georgia, just a sweet reminder of her short time with her loving, adoring family.

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  2. Calla and Maya are wonderful. What a sweet spin to put on it...I have to agree with them.

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  3. Wow, Calla and Maya are truly incredible little girls. To be so selfless in their thinking, seeing the 'good' in losing their fish and thinking of the joy it would bring to Georgia, awesome!!

    I know this weekend, on top of the last week, would have been so tough...but I am glad you can see the joy the girls bring you, and continue to bring you. It is great that they are now helping you see the positive in things, just as you have helped them along this journey-it shows what a great job you are all doing as a family.

    Loved the pics of the girls playing in the snow. Tori wishes it would be winter all year long so she could play in the snow too, if only we lived nearer and the girls could play together.
    We miss you all, Love Em

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  4. This is truly the best Thanksgiving story I have ever read. Both the joy and sadness are so present, if you know what I mean.

    Thank you Kristen for sharing your story with us, it is simply beautiful.

    Love and hugs, Madge

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