Welcome to Georgia's Journey

Georgia Lily Lucas was born at home on October 6th, 2008 4:15am, in Winnipeg, Manitoba. She was diagnosed with SMA (Spinal Muscular Atrophy) on April 1, 2009.

On April 3rd Georgia was taken home, to be near her sisters and the rest of her family and friends. Nearly three weeks later, on April 21, 2009, she died peacefully -- in the loving arms of her mother and in the same room in which she was born.

Friday, April 15, 2011

Quiet

The days have been flying by lately. Yesterday I felt like I couldn't keep up with the clock. It seemed to be moving way faster than I was and I felt like I was moving quickly! In my last post I wrote that we have been quietly keeping busy. I wrote the word quiet because that is how it feels when I am not reliving every moment that I had with Georgia. Of course, she has been on my mind. She is always on my mind but this year I find myself feeling much calmer as we approach her angel date.

Calla and Maya have been having a bit of a hard time, especially at night. Calla has been up in the night crying because she misses her sister and Maya has been up with nightmares. It's funny how even though Mike and I haven't said anything, as soon as Calla's birthday is over they start to 'feel' things. I am pretty sure that Maya has very little memory left of Georgia but the minute spring arrives she starts to change. Calla too has become quiet again. Not quite as obvious as last year but she is definitely more subdued.

We are hoping to escape next week but with all of the flooding we don't actually know that we'll make it to the States. We don't even know that we'll make it out of the city, so extensive is the flooding. We'll find some way of getting away however.

Every once in a while I feel guilty that I haven't been more upset. Sometimes I think that I should be feeling sadder or having a hard time but right now I am feeling calm. After losing a child I am very aware of how life can take one dramatic turn after another - how one day you think that life is perfect and then the next... Right now I am enjoying the calm. Today and hopefully tomorrow, I am enjoying the quiet of my life.

Love to you all,

Kristen
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Wednesday, April 13, 2011

We have been quietly staying busy around here the last couple of weeks. The weather finally warmed up earlier this week only to greet us with below zero temperatures this morning and a windchill!! No fun. At least we've had the bikes out for a couple of weeks now. It's kind of funny that my kids have had to take off their toques to put on their helmets and then they ride around with their mitts on! : ) Mike's sister Peggy came out for a visit over the weekend and to celebrate Mike's birthday which we did on Monday. I'm pretty sure that his favorite gift is a book about breadmaking!! He also requested one on pizza dough but doesn't seem quite as excited about it. Bread making has become his passion and I'm not complaining!
Mike and the girls with his birthday pie.

This one I just put up for fun. Check out the teeth! : )
Love to you all,


Kristen
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