Yesterday, I did something that I never do. I sat down and watched t.v. for two whole hours during the middle of the day. Obviously I ended up watching the Michael Jackson memorial. Despite his questionable choices and actions he was a brilliant song writer and entertainer who brought millions of people together breaking all kinds of barriers along the way. One of the speakers made reference to the fact that Michael made every single one of his dreams come true. I find that idea amazing. What kind of life would we all have to lead to make every single one of our dreams come true? How many of us are afraid to even make choices that would make one of our dreams come true?
I have many dreams and surprisingly since Georgia died instead of having them disappear I feel more optimistic about them than ever. Some of them are simple dreams others more complex. Some of them are dreams I can share with the world and others I will keep to myself. I attribute most of this to the idea that I don't fear failure anymore (except to possibly fail Georgia). I have also come to understand that there is very little in this life that I can actually control. Most of us are fooling ourselves when we think that we have taken the wheel.
So, when will these dreams come true? I don't know and for the most part I'm not sure that I care. They will all happen in their own time. At this point, the only way that I feel like I could fail Georgie would be to stop dreaming and stop living. Earlier this evening one of my friend's told me that she was so pleased at the way Mike and I have continued 'living', 'truly living'. That is the nicest comment somebody could give me because it reminds me that I have taken one of the lessons Georgie taught me and am practicing it every day.
4 sleeps to Vegas!!
Love to you all,
8 Years an Angel
2 weeks ago