Welcome to Georgia's Journey

Georgia Lily Lucas was born at home on October 6th, 2008 4:15am, in Winnipeg, Manitoba. She was diagnosed with SMA (Spinal Muscular Atrophy) on April 1, 2009.

On April 3rd Georgia was taken home, to be near her sisters and the rest of her family and friends. Nearly three weeks later, on April 21, 2009, she died peacefully -- in the loving arms of her mother and in the same room in which she was born.

Saturday, May 7, 2011

Lucky Mom

I know that I am lucky despite the fact that I have lost a child. I try to count my blessings every day and continually remind myself what is important. I am far from perfect and sometimes get caught up in the little things. Sometimes I feel overwhelmed and frustrated. I sigh when Maya asks for another band aid, Calla still isn't ready or Aria is up yet again.

What I find amazing however, is that these little beings really do appreciate every thing I do. How do I know this? Well, they aren't always saying thank you, or putting their toys away. No. They don't remember to bring their dishes to the counter or throw their clothes in the hamper. No. They certainly don't eat the meals I prepare every day without complaining. No. Half the time they don't even remember to flush! : ) How do I know?

Well, it's the way their faces light up when they see me after only being apart for an hour. It's the way that they reach for my hand when they are unsure or bury their face in my shoulder. It's the way that they blow me kisses and say good night at least ten times. It's the way that they look to me for reassurance and guidance. It's the way they repeat what I say to others (not always in the most flattering way). They will ask me if I am happy, angry or sad. They will hug me and throw themselves at me sometimes when I least expect it. They love me just as much as I love them.

Calla came home on Friday instructing me not to look in her bag. She had a surprise for Mother's Day. Later on after she had removed the surprise I went through her stuff. I found a paper entitled 'Six Thing I love about You!' I asked her if it was part of her surprise. "Nope", she said. "You can read it now!" I tried to take a picture of it to post but the glare from the camera kept washing it out so I am retyping it here. [edit: I've scanned it so you can look at the message in Calla's printing below... -Mike]

Six Thing I Love about You!

I Love the way You cook. I Love wen you cook pasta. I Love how you bake me short bread cookies. I Love You. I love how you hug me and kiss me every day. I love that you are my mom because I Love you and you are the best mom in the world!
Love Calla


See... Three beautiful girls here on earth and one in Heaven watching over all of us. I am a lucky mom to be so loved.

Love to you all,

Kristen


3 comments:

  1. And I love this post! Sometimes the frustrations of our kids get in the way of us remembering what is important-that we are SO lucky to be Moms and have such amazing kids.
    I love the note Calla wrote, so simple and sweet and so full of love. I know you feel so blessed by the love all 4 of your girls bring to you, and by being their Mom and learning so much from them...and I know you are so loved by them as well, and I am glad you can feel it!
    You truly are one of the most inspirational, incredible, and truly selfless Moms and people I know and I hope you have a Mother's Day full of love and laughter. I hope you can feel Georgie's presence tomorrow stronger than ever, 'cause I have no doubt she will be there showering you with love and hugs, just as you always do for her!
    Love and hugs always, Em

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  2. Hi Emma,
    Wow that was a quick comment! FYI I've scanned in Calla's actual printing, it's pretty cute when you read it that way.
    Hope you have an awesome Mother's Day too! I'm certain Tori, Jess (& Bruce working behind the scenes) will make sure that happens.
    Cheers
    Mike

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  3. Yep, I was on the computer and was thinking of you guys and came over here to leave a message for Mothers Day and there was the post...and I was just logging off when I saw the actual note-SO cute!!!! It is that much more special when you see it in their own writing, and you can see the effort it takes for them to write them for you. You have a pretty sweet little girl on your hands! Hope you all have a great day tomorrow and I know you will make Kristen feel like the amazing Mom she is!

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