Welcome to Georgia's Journey

Georgia Lily Lucas was born at home on October 6th, 2008 4:15am, in Winnipeg, Manitoba. She was diagnosed with SMA (Spinal Muscular Atrophy) on April 1, 2009.

On April 3rd Georgia was taken home, to be near her sisters and the rest of her family and friends. Nearly three weeks later, on April 21, 2009, she died peacefully -- in the loving arms of her mother and in the same room in which she was born.

Tuesday, October 5, 2010

Almost 2

Dearest Georgie,

It has been 1 year, 5 months and 14 days since I held you in my arms and watched you take your last breath. When I close my eyes, I can still smell the sweet smell of your skin and feel your little hand curled around my fingers. While I am no longer pained by every breath, once in a while it still hurts to breathe. While I am no longer surprised by the beating of my own heart, sometimes when I think of you it feels like it is going to burst right out of my chest.

We threw a birthday party for you again. We had over 30 volunteers and hundreds of people showed up. Everybody had fun. It felt good to know that we are surrounded by such amazing people. It feels great to continue raising money and awareness for SMA but... it also leaves me exhausted and aching. I...we miss you every moment of every day.

The girls want to celebrate your birthday tomorrow. We will actually be on the road. I purposely planned it this way. I am not ready to share your birthday with others. I don't want to put on a happy face and pretend that it's okay. It will never be okay! Tomorrow, we will celebrate your second birthday in our own way... just us. I will make sure that your sisters are pleased however and one day I hope that I will be able smile on your birthday and not have to pretend.

Love Mommy


4 comments:

  1. Praying for you and your family as you treasure the blessed day of Georgia's birth. May you see Georgie's spirit shine through in a million different ways :o) Hugs, Lisa

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  2. You will all be in my thoughts tomorrow, as you are always but especially on those extra special days. I know you will do something special as a family, and don't ever feel like you have to share that day with anyone...you deserve to have it all to yourself!:-)
    I know Georgia was there on Sunday, loving the smiles and hearing the laughter that she brought to all those kids-if it wasn't for her and her fighting spirit we wouldnt have heard of SMA and that fundraiser wouldn't have happened...what a gift she gave so many!
    Once again, thank you for sharing Georgia with us, for sharing your story and for teaching us all what true love, family and life are all about.
    Love Em

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  3. Hi, thank you so much for your email. I found out about you the night our event when I saw you on the tv. I am sorry we missed each others events. We will definitely be having the walk again next year. It has been the first Saturday of October the last 3 years. It seems to be a good weekend to have it. Please feel free to email me and I will put you in my contacts for the next event, if you wish.

    Happy Birthday to your little girl <3

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  4. What an amazing picture. Her eyes are GORGEOUS!

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