Welcome to Georgia's Journey

Georgia Lily Lucas was born at home on October 6th, 2008 4:15am, in Winnipeg, Manitoba. She was diagnosed with SMA (Spinal Muscular Atrophy) on April 1, 2009.

On April 3rd Georgia was taken home, to be near her sisters and the rest of her family and friends. Nearly three weeks later, on April 21, 2009, she died peacefully -- in the loving arms of her mother and in the same room in which she was born.

Sunday, July 18, 2010

The Sound of Life

When a baby is born we all wait to hear that famous first cry that tells us that s/he is alive and breathing. When Calla was born we were relieved to hear that first cry but within a few days I would start to dread it. Calla was by many accounts one of the most colicky babies most people had ever met. There was no rhyme or reason to her crying, she basically just cried around the clock. She would have about 3 twenty minute naps during the day and the rest of the time was spent with me trying to keep her from crying. Once she started crying she could go on for an hour or two at a time. It was exhausting. This went on for several months before she settled and eventually became one of the most calm toddlers anyone had ever met. I guess that she had gotten it all out of her system early! : )

Maya was a calmer baby who still cried but was much more easy to settle. Georgia was born with a strong cry but within a few weeks it would get weaker and weaker. I remember one day she was asleep in her car seat at Maya's drop in class and started to cry. I couldn't hear her but I could see her from where I was standing. I felt awful, not knowing how long she had been upset. I never dreaded hearing Georgia's cry because she was easily settled most of the time and it was such a soft sound. By the time she was three months, I swear that she understood half of what I said to her and would often wait patiently to be fed or picked up.

It sounds awful but I do find myself smiling and almost laughing sometimes when I hear Aria cry. It's not that I like her to be upset, but hearing how loud she can get and watching her kick and try to roll around is amazing! She is so strong and she is also easily settled. When she is kicking up a fit to be fed I remind myself to be grateful.

The night before Georgia died she had more breath than she'd had in weeks. She was cooing and trying to sing that night. Sadly, I had almost forgotten the sound of her voice. In the moment just before she took her last breath she cried out. It wasn't very loud but I knew that it took every last bit of her energy. It wasn't a painful cry, more like a cry of relief...or at least I like to think of it that way. Ironically, it was the first and last sound of her life.

So now when I hear Aria bellowing it out I remind myself that what I am hearing is the sound of life, music to my ears. : )

Love to you all,

Kristen

4 comments:

  1. I couldn't agree with you more :o)

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  2. Georgia continues with her gifts...allowing you to see the beauty we often miss in the sound of a crying baby! So glad Aria fills your house with even more love, reasons for laughter and even her cries! I wish I lived closer, I can't wait to have the privilege of meeting your newest little girl...one day soon I hope! :-) Love Em

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  3. This is such a beautiful post!!!

    I had a dream about you the other night. Gwendolyn was in her stroller and I was pushing her down a road. And then we saw you in the distance in a big open field. And as we got closer we could see you with your four girls -- all running and playing and laughing. All of you and there was so much love. It was such a happy sight that it made Gwendolyn and I smile -- on the outside and on the inside!

    Sending hugs your way.

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  4. Kristen, I've been away for a week and half and didn't have access to a computer your post was beautiful! Maryssa too was one of the most colicky babies i and all of my family had ever seen she cried 24 hours a day for 9 months straight. It was the hardest thing to endure... but I never quite thought of it in that way. I have to say to you over and over again your blog makes me look at my daughters in a whole new way everytime I read and I'm so grateful that you write as often as you do. Thank-you for sharing!

    Vanessa

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